Slow Down, This is Moving Too Fast
I want one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel
I will feel eternity
Whitney Houston - "One Moment In Time"
So its been awhile. I've missed you guys dearly. I've had so much to tell you,so much I wanted to say, just no time to do it. Maternity leave is alot different from working right at 50 hours a week. I thought I left busy season behind when I left public accounting, little did I know.
I have noticed now more than ever, that life is short. It seems like I have been living life on fast forward for the past year. I year ago next month, I became a mother for the second time. My youngest child will be one year old soon. It seems like just yesterday I was pregnant with my oldest. It felt like just yesterday I was dropping it like it was hot in Elm City to Luke and Two Live Crew. Where does the time go...
Everyday I come home, eat dinner, not cook dinner, because my better half cooked. I got off too late. I have a million things to do, but never get around to doing them because I fall asleep with the baby and get up at 5:25 am. I can't balance my checkbook, watch everything I have DVRed, cook a good meal, or call and catch up with some folks I miss dearly. Where is my life? I guess I could do any of those things right now, but then I would be gone away from you longer.
Of course i have time to eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner with snacks but here is the sad part...I have to fit Weight Watchers in over a lunch meeting and don't seem to have the 15 minutes to get me jelly ass on my elliptical machine I purchased two months ago.
So weigh in...is it just me, or does time march to a different beat when you get older? Or is it responsibilty that puts it on fast forward? Now I think about it, maybe it is correlated with billing cycles...hhhmmmm. What do you think?
Can I possible borrow some of your time? I have seemed to misplace all of mine.
posted by Mz Cane at 8:52 PM
4 Comments:
Mz Cane, we have missed you.
Time, what time? After I had children, worked full time, had a husband, I was always super tired. Life changes, kids grow up, I am no longer with my husband and I still do not have any time. I work two jobs and have not time for anything. I go weeks before I can return calls, I miss meetings, outings with friends, etc. I have fantasies about a good nights rest. Like you my days start early with trying to beat the battle of the bulge, I am walking or doing an exercise tape. Then to work and to work again. By the time I get home it is time to sleep. Then on weekends, I am running errands, trying to do Weight Watchers, visit a friend or two, clean house, clean the car, dang, what time? Don't you know I still find time to squeeze a man into this equation. But I will say, I don't go as hard as I used to, I have to say no to some activities, so what the house needs to be dusted, I have not folded this weeks laundry, I need my sleep. Thank goodness for email, that is how I stay in touch. If you find some extra sleep, lend a sista a few hours, please.
I think a time management course is what you need. If you can't make the time for that(you probably won't)get some literature on the subject. I truly think it will help you.
A dear friend recently suggested to take a day--just one day a year to be by yourself. No cell phines, pagers, laptops, PDA's tv, radio etc...you get the picture. That is hard to do but I am convinced that this high tech society has led us to believe that we have to try and do it all. My Dad recently passed away, and I had the best time spending with him during his last months, weeks and days. I had time to reflect on the lessons he taught and he always said to the five of us that we seem to try to "out busy" the next. Trust me, I know about time slipping away. My youngest son is on a ventilator 24 hours a day. When there is not a nurse to care for him, it is my wife or I. We have little to no time for each other, and make the best of family time as we can. I am, however, commited to taking care of myself by getting away and doing me from time to time. Good to hear from you again.
Great Subject...........Lemme give you a different perspective. I have time to do exactly what I want to do. Yes I have a job that require 45 hours a week, 2 kids that play soccer and basketball, a husband with whom I love hanging out with (most of the time, 3 very close friends whom I talk to daily/weekly, and see at minimum monthly. I also have an elderly parent in a different state whom I have to check up on frequently to ensure doctors visits are kept, medicines are bieng taken, and bills are being paid. As if that wasn't enough, I got the hair brained idea to slowly start a PT business. However, I learned an important lesson exactly 4 years ago when speaking with my mother on her death bed. She said to me "Make time to do all the things you want to do within reason while you still have health and strength"! That important message was followed by, "Keep GOD First In your life and all other things will fall into place".A few more words about taking care of her grandchildren followed before I parted. Since that day, I have been bound and determined to do exactly what she said. Those words prompted me to really take a long hard look at "not having time". I then realized that my time was going towards doing exactly what I made a priority. Just some food for thought. I rearranged my priorities the day after we burried her.
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